OMG! Ok, so the next time I see James, and I'm not working or with family, I WILL punch him in his fucking face. I am SICK AND TIRED of being called a bitch nonstop and having all this shit going on. I gave up all of my friends so that he could have them, because he couldn't SHARE BEING THE SELFISH SON OF A FUCKING BITCH THAT HE IS and I've defended myself against more bitching than I deserved. I DON'T FUCKING LOVE YOU AND I DON'T MISS YOU. I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF I HEAR THAT YOU HAVE SAID OR POSTED ONE MORE FUCKING THING, I WILL PUNCH YOU IN THEN FUCKING FACE, I DON'T CARE IF YOU PUNCH ME BACK AND YOUR STRENGTH KNOCKS ME OUT, IT WOULD JUST BE WORTH IT TO PUNCH YOU IN YOUR FUCKING LYING, CRYBABY, ASSHOLE-ISH FACE. GET OVER ME.
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12.23.2008
12.10.2008
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* . . About You . . *
Eye Color:: Hazel
Hair Color:: Brown with red and blonde highlights
Height:: 5'4 and a half :)
Favorite Color:: pink or black... sometimes orange.
Screen Name:: thecursedgirl13
Favorite Band:: Linkin Park or Korn
Favorite Movie:: Any of the Saw movies and kinda Twilight
Favorite Show:: Scrubs
Your Car:: Pontiac Sunfire Convertible
Your Hometown:: Milwaukee
Your Present Town:: Saukville
Your Crushes First Name:: Emmanuel
Your Grade:: freshman in college
Your Style:: Any really.
* . . Have You Ever . . *
Sat on your rooftop?: No, I wish
Kissed someone in the rain?: No
Danced in a public place?: Yes
Smiled for no reason?: Yeah, all the time.
Laughed so hard you cried?: Yup
Peed your pants after age 8?: No, I don't think so.
Written a song?: Yes
Sang to someone for no reason?: No
Performed on a stage?: Yes
Talked to someone you don't know?: Yes
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: Yes
Made out in a theatre?: Yes
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: Yes
Been in love?: ....No
* . . Who was the last person to . . *
Say HI to you?: A customer at work
Tell you, I love you?: Liz
Kiss you?: Kyle
Hug you?: Liz
Tell you BYE?: Lona
Write you a note?: In real life: James or Caleb, Online: Samuel
Take your photo?: Me
Call your cell phone?: Lona or Katie
Buy you something?: Sarah
Go with you to the movies?: Katie, Samuel, and Evan
Sing to you?: ...
Write a poem about you?: No one ever.
Text message you?: Katie or Krystal
Touch you?: Inappropriately: Probably Nathan ages ago, Appropriately: Liz :P
* . . What's the last . . *
Time you laughed?: Yesterday at work
Time you cried?: 3 nights ago
Movie you watched?: Lost Souls
Joke you told?: Omg, I don't remember
Song you've sang?: I don't remember this one either
Time you've looked at the clock?: Just now.
Drink you've had?: Alcoholic - like a month ago, Non-Alcoholic - this morning
Number you've dialed?: 262-689-7377
Book you've read?: A book on Ed Gein
Food you've eaten?: Banana
Flavor of gum chewed?: Spearmint
Shoes you've worn?: Black and pink skater shoes
Store you've been in?: Best Buy
Thing you've said?: See ya.
* . . Can You . . *
Write with both hands?: Kinda
Whistle?: Yes
Blow a bubble?: Yes
Roll your tounge in a circle?: Yes
Cross your eyes?: Yes
Touch your tounge to your nose?: Yes
Dance?: Sometimes.
Gleek?: No
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: Yes
Speak a different language?: Yes
Impersonate someone?: LOL Yes
Prank call people?: Yes
Make a card pyramid?: No, no patience
Cook anything?: Yes
* . . Finish The Line . . *
If i were a ...: fish
I wish ...: upon a star
So many people don't know that ...: I'm crazy
I am ...: amazing
My heart is ...: blue
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The Best Myspace Survey
* . . About You . . *
Eye Color:: Hazel
Hair Color:: Brown with red and blonde highlights
Height:: 5'4 and a half :)
Favorite Color:: pink or black... sometimes orange.
Screen Name:: thecursedgirl13
Favorite Band:: Linkin Park or Korn
Favorite Movie:: Any of the Saw movies and kinda Twilight
Favorite Show:: Scrubs
Your Car:: Pontiac Sunfire Convertible
Your Hometown:: Milwaukee
Your Present Town:: Saukville
Your Crushes First Name:: Emmanuel
Your Grade:: freshman in college
Your Style:: Any really.
* . . Have You Ever . . *
Sat on your rooftop?: No, I wish
Kissed someone in the rain?: No
Danced in a public place?: Yes
Smiled for no reason?: Yeah, all the time.
Laughed so hard you cried?: Yup
Peed your pants after age 8?: No, I don't think so.
Written a song?: Yes
Sang to someone for no reason?: No
Performed on a stage?: Yes
Talked to someone you don't know?: Yes
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: Yes
Made out in a theatre?: Yes
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: Yes
Been in love?: ....No
* . . Who was the last person to . . *
Say HI to you?: A customer at work
Tell you, I love you?: Liz
Kiss you?: Kyle
Hug you?: Liz
Tell you BYE?: Lona
Write you a note?: In real life: James or Caleb, Online: Samuel
Take your photo?: Me
Call your cell phone?: Lona or Katie
Buy you something?: Sarah
Go with you to the movies?: Katie, Samuel, and Evan
Sing to you?: ...
Write a poem about you?: No one ever.
Text message you?: Katie or Krystal
Touch you?: Inappropriately: Probably Nathan ages ago, Appropriately: Liz :P
* . . What's the last . . *
Time you laughed?: Yesterday at work
Time you cried?: 3 nights ago
Movie you watched?: Lost Souls
Joke you told?: Omg, I don't remember
Song you've sang?: I don't remember this one either
Time you've looked at the clock?: Just now.
Drink you've had?: Alcoholic - like a month ago, Non-Alcoholic - this morning
Number you've dialed?: 262-689-7377
Book you've read?: A book on Ed Gein
Food you've eaten?: Banana
Flavor of gum chewed?: Spearmint
Shoes you've worn?: Black and pink skater shoes
Store you've been in?: Best Buy
Thing you've said?: See ya.
* . . Can You . . *
Write with both hands?: Kinda
Whistle?: Yes
Blow a bubble?: Yes
Roll your tounge in a circle?: Yes
Cross your eyes?: Yes
Touch your tounge to your nose?: Yes
Dance?: Sometimes.
Gleek?: No
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: Yes
Speak a different language?: Yes
Impersonate someone?: LOL Yes
Prank call people?: Yes
Make a card pyramid?: No, no patience
Cook anything?: Yes
* . . Finish The Line . . *
If i were a ...: fish
I wish ...: upon a star
So many people don't know that ...: I'm crazy
I am ...: amazing
My heart is ...: blue
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12.8.2008
Sooo
Ok I've been thinking as usual. So I want to be a journalist, I think. I'm really stuck between journalist and elementary school teacher. I keep going back and forth.. I don't know though.
Ok other thing... So I might KIND OF like this guy I work with, but he's a huge flirt. Like I'm pretty sure he flirts with like every girl that works there, Idk though. Well anyways the other day he was saying how he hates it that all these 16-yr-olds have been hitting on him and how they're too young and I said, well I don't have to worry about that. And he was like, why? I'm like, well what do you mean why? I don't have to worry about guys liking me here because they don't. And he's like, that's not true, there's probably a few here that have crushes on you. And I said, nope. He said, yeah I know a couple but I'm not going to tell you. SOOOOOO Would you assume that HE likes me? I mean he tells me I'm his favorite there all the time. And at first I was like, yeah, ok, he probably says it to everyone but he really doesn't. He says that to me in front of all the other cashiers and managers and he doesn't say it to the other girls there....? Soooo....? Chuck, seeing as you're like the only one that reads this anymore besides that NOSY MOTHER FUCKER, James. And it's funny because now you can't yell at me for calling you that because it would be true because in order to read what I said about you, you would've had to have been a NOSY MOTHER FUCKER. lol. Ok so anyways, oh, and I guess Austin reads this occasionally too so you too feel free to let me know what I should think. I just need a guy's opinion on what to think here...
Hmmm, what else. The nightmares have decreased. So I guess the one thing I took care of really relieved alot of my stress. Who knows though. And I still feel lonely :( I really just want to like a guy and be liked back. Just like in high school where it was like "Hey, wanna go out?" lol and then if I didn't like the guy THAT much, I learned to like him. But now NO ONE is asking me out. Maybe I just got fat or something. I dunno.
Well, I think that's all for now. TTYL
Ok other thing... So I might KIND OF like this guy I work with, but he's a huge flirt. Like I'm pretty sure he flirts with like every girl that works there, Idk though. Well anyways the other day he was saying how he hates it that all these 16-yr-olds have been hitting on him and how they're too young and I said, well I don't have to worry about that. And he was like, why? I'm like, well what do you mean why? I don't have to worry about guys liking me here because they don't. And he's like, that's not true, there's probably a few here that have crushes on you. And I said, nope. He said, yeah I know a couple but I'm not going to tell you. SOOOOOO Would you assume that HE likes me? I mean he tells me I'm his favorite there all the time. And at first I was like, yeah, ok, he probably says it to everyone but he really doesn't. He says that to me in front of all the other cashiers and managers and he doesn't say it to the other girls there....? Soooo....? Chuck, seeing as you're like the only one that reads this anymore besides that NOSY MOTHER FUCKER, James. And it's funny because now you can't yell at me for calling you that because it would be true because in order to read what I said about you, you would've had to have been a NOSY MOTHER FUCKER. lol. Ok so anyways, oh, and I guess Austin reads this occasionally too so you too feel free to let me know what I should think. I just need a guy's opinion on what to think here...
Hmmm, what else. The nightmares have decreased. So I guess the one thing I took care of really relieved alot of my stress. Who knows though. And I still feel lonely :( I really just want to like a guy and be liked back. Just like in high school where it was like "Hey, wanna go out?" lol and then if I didn't like the guy THAT much, I learned to like him. But now NO ONE is asking me out. Maybe I just got fat or something. I dunno.
Well, I think that's all for now. TTYL
12.1.2008
Hey Hey.
So nothing new is really up... Just sittin' at school. I just registered for the spring semester. I will be taking English 2, American History Since 1877, College Algebra and Spanish 2. So that should be fun, and hopefully Best Buy will keep me on (Right now I am hired as seasonal). I don't know what I'll do if they don't, I absolutely ADORE the people there... I will die if I have to find a new job. ;^.(
In other news, I have been having some INSANE nightmares for like the past 2 weeks. I don't know WHAT is going on with me. One nightmare was that my mom had a baby (a new little sister) and she asked me to bring it inside and give it a bath and I killed it! OMG That makes me think that I will be like a terrible mother and I am really upset by this one. Another one was that my kitty, Mufasa, was like gutted along with like 6 other cats and then stitched back up and he was still alive but in so much pain and I didn't know what to do. Weird part, Chuck I'm sure you will laugh your ass off at this part: Caleb was the cat killer. OMG How weird is that?! I mean I barely talk to him and I don't hang out with him, yet I have a nightmare that he guts my cat?! WTF. Ok now the other ones were pretty much a blur except for two more of them. Two nights ago, I had a dream that, FOR SOME REASON, I slept with this guy from work. It was like a spur of the moment 'I'm drunk' thing and then I immediately knew I was pregnant but I didn't know if it was his or this guy I was with a month ago... Ok then lastnight I had a dream that there was going to be a HUGE like flood (maybe a hurricane) and we were all being evacuated to like a couple miles down the road (and we didn't have a car, who knows why) and I was with Katie M and someone else so we got back to the house and Nathan and like Dan or Nick were there and my dad and sisters. Ok so we grabbed a couple things and started walking, then I remembered that I left my money at the house so I said I would be right back. When I got downstairs I found my mom in the laundry room just doing laundry (She was delusional and looked like she was in some sort of a trance) so I told her we needed to leave and we needed to get out of there before the storm hit. She said ok but then went into the other room and started folding the laundry, I told her I was going to go get Dad and she said no, let them go. So I told her we could grab a few laundry baskets and bring the laundry with and she said ok and I woke up.... But it was just so eerie how she got that depressed and wouldnt come with.. I don't know. It's just been nightmare after nightmare for the past week. There was another one in there somewhere that I just remembered where a serial killer chased me all over this neighborhood and no one was in their houses to help me. I ended up hiding in a dark, cold basement on the concrete floor before he found and killed me. Now, my mom thinks that stress is bothering me. I haven't really had any major stress and at times when I had worse stress than now, I didn't have nightmares. What's going on? Well, I know what one of the dreams is about thankfully and I will hopefully eliminate that one stress soon. Sorry I can't go into more detail but it's a REALLY personal matter..
Well, that's all for now I guess. I'll ttyl!
In other news, I have been having some INSANE nightmares for like the past 2 weeks. I don't know WHAT is going on with me. One nightmare was that my mom had a baby (a new little sister) and she asked me to bring it inside and give it a bath and I killed it! OMG That makes me think that I will be like a terrible mother and I am really upset by this one. Another one was that my kitty, Mufasa, was like gutted along with like 6 other cats and then stitched back up and he was still alive but in so much pain and I didn't know what to do. Weird part, Chuck I'm sure you will laugh your ass off at this part: Caleb was the cat killer. OMG How weird is that?! I mean I barely talk to him and I don't hang out with him, yet I have a nightmare that he guts my cat?! WTF. Ok now the other ones were pretty much a blur except for two more of them. Two nights ago, I had a dream that, FOR SOME REASON, I slept with this guy from work. It was like a spur of the moment 'I'm drunk' thing and then I immediately knew I was pregnant but I didn't know if it was his or this guy I was with a month ago... Ok then lastnight I had a dream that there was going to be a HUGE like flood (maybe a hurricane) and we were all being evacuated to like a couple miles down the road (and we didn't have a car, who knows why) and I was with Katie M and someone else so we got back to the house and Nathan and like Dan or Nick were there and my dad and sisters. Ok so we grabbed a couple things and started walking, then I remembered that I left my money at the house so I said I would be right back. When I got downstairs I found my mom in the laundry room just doing laundry (She was delusional and looked like she was in some sort of a trance) so I told her we needed to leave and we needed to get out of there before the storm hit. She said ok but then went into the other room and started folding the laundry, I told her I was going to go get Dad and she said no, let them go. So I told her we could grab a few laundry baskets and bring the laundry with and she said ok and I woke up.... But it was just so eerie how she got that depressed and wouldnt come with.. I don't know. It's just been nightmare after nightmare for the past week. There was another one in there somewhere that I just remembered where a serial killer chased me all over this neighborhood and no one was in their houses to help me. I ended up hiding in a dark, cold basement on the concrete floor before he found and killed me. Now, my mom thinks that stress is bothering me. I haven't really had any major stress and at times when I had worse stress than now, I didn't have nightmares. What's going on? Well, I know what one of the dreams is about thankfully and I will hopefully eliminate that one stress soon. Sorry I can't go into more detail but it's a REALLY personal matter..
Well, that's all for now I guess. I'll ttyl!
11.22.2008
Yesss!
Ok so I have my new job at Best Buy in Grafton and I LOVE it. I seriously think the ratio of guys to girls is off or something because seriously the guys there are SUPER nice and funny. Ok crazy story though...
So the first guy that talked to me at the first meeting I went to (which was before I even started working in the store for real) was Phil. Ok well on my 2nd day of actual work, I was trained for about an hour or so by Phil. I found out this morning that his last name is Bonvincini. Phil Bonvincini. He was a grade or 2 ahead of me at Port. As a cheerleader, we were obligated to make pillow cases and put up signs in the football players' yards for homecoming. Well, Phil was a football player but was out of school for most of the year because of Leukemia, I think. Anyways I was assigned to make him a pillowcase and to put up the homecoming sign in his yard my SOPHOMORE year lol! I asked him if he remembered today and he said he still has it! Omigosh. That just made me smile. What a small world it really is.
Just had to share that story because I really feel good today and I believe that was part of it. :)
So the first guy that talked to me at the first meeting I went to (which was before I even started working in the store for real) was Phil. Ok well on my 2nd day of actual work, I was trained for about an hour or so by Phil. I found out this morning that his last name is Bonvincini. Phil Bonvincini. He was a grade or 2 ahead of me at Port. As a cheerleader, we were obligated to make pillow cases and put up signs in the football players' yards for homecoming. Well, Phil was a football player but was out of school for most of the year because of Leukemia, I think. Anyways I was assigned to make him a pillowcase and to put up the homecoming sign in his yard my SOPHOMORE year lol! I asked him if he remembered today and he said he still has it! Omigosh. That just made me smile. What a small world it really is.
Just had to share that story because I really feel good today and I believe that was part of it. :)
11.20.2008
Get out my life, you nosy little backstabbing bitch!
Oops, was I not supposed to write about this in my "blog thing"? My bad, and it's a journal. If you're going to use it against me in all of your insults, do it the right way
Oops, was I not supposed to write about this in my "blog thing"? My bad, and it's a journal. If you're going to use it against me in all of your insults, do it the right way
"I just read all these things on your wall on facebook.. and this jessica chick is right.. your pathetic and loser and you REALLY need to grow up because you contradict yourself.. " - Anonymous
Why don't you just come out and say who you are? Animostiy is lame and you don't know me. Get over yourself and stop bashing me when I haven't said one thing about you. I'm sick of all this fucking bull shit with James, Jessica, you, and just stupid people all together. It's getting really old really fast. Just shut the fuck up and go be a whore like you are.
Why don't you just come out and say who you are? Animostiy is lame and you don't know me. Get over yourself and stop bashing me when I haven't said one thing about you. I'm sick of all this fucking bull shit with James, Jessica, you, and just stupid people all together. It's getting really old really fast. Just shut the fuck up and go be a whore like you are.